Blog : cov4

April 4, 2015 | Color of Violence 4 (recap again!)

April 4, 2015 | Color of Violence 4 (recap again!)

COV4: recap yet again!

Enjoy this photo show, or picture show, as my mama
would say. Chicago you do this thing that charms me with
your midwestern gargantuan food portions, yet

breaks my heart overtime.

This was a hard trip. I was facing so many transitions:
people still remembering me as able-bodied; people uncomfortable
with my use of a scooter as a transmasculine brown person using
an assistive device which seemed sadly like such a threat, i.e.
“Ohhhh, hey why don’t you give me a ride?! or “Why are you on
that thing?! You are taking up space!”; remembering deaths of
dear family members; recollecting my old queer days;
midwestern gender binaries; heart ache; and having too
much time in a convention center.

What brought me life were the moments of intimacy— the
glares and smirks during workshops when someone said something
uplifting, the check ins for food and medicine by SDQTPOC and
our loving allies working to hustle resources for us, pool karaoke
time with my PNW & toronto homies, acupuncture from Geleni,
scooter shares with glorious lame and wobbly friends as well as those
feeling pain. Shouts to organizers Shira Hassan, 
Shonettia Monique,
Prudence Brown, and all the others who showed up in the most

accountable and best ways they could for this mega long-awaited
conference! Your work has nourished me since my baby queer days,
continues to do so for so many communities. I’ve always respected
the tenacity and love from which y’all create political change and
movement building. Thank you for sharing the long work, the invested
time, the hard talks, the critical moments that ache, you know that love
and liberation take the hustle and the slow languid rough moments
that cannot be summarized by any tweet or FB status. The strategic
sharpness it takes to hold 2000+ people so hungry and so deserving
of one another is beautiful and I’m sending y’all such blessed

[Wonderful fat queer people of color throwing it down! Thanks to Geleni Fontaine for hosting “Liberation Shows Up!” with me and to Asam Ahmed from “It Gets Fatter” joining our workshop with his insights on de-colonization and wellness. I’m surrounded by loving brilliance! See]



[old skool chicago ways with DJ Ang and Martine! back back in the day we disturbed all the midwestern whiteness and continue to stay true to our liberation!]
[enter Stokely in the comic book pajamas and his mom, Beatriz! They came to visit me pre-showcase and what a blessing they continue to be. Beatriz does fly food justice work, so catch her at Grassroots Action Network at WhyHunger! and Malcolm X Grassroots Movement.]
[Just a group in the 150+ session “Liberation Shows Up!” where we hatched some dope and live insights on disability justice in our hearts, homes, and world. Shouts to this group and peep my loves, Fatima and Milo doing’ their thang!]
[Idalia, me, and Milo. I’ve got access intimacy from the good good spirits. Idalia be a chicana down & brown homey, supporting those of us SDQTPOC peoples with food and support through out the conference. I love these dear ones.]
[Mighty Denise selling her fly and homemade wares at the #COV4 conference. Back in the day we coached poetry slam on Paseo Boriqua. A dope poet, mom, and leader, check her gear out at Madre de Perla Designs in Chicago. Thanks for the tie, homey!]

[Here’s fam right here. Big thanks to Milo, Asam, and Fatima for sharing their knowledge and experiences that helped me craft this workshop. Shouts out to all the mighty fine, thoughtful, & honest conversations that happened at “Liberation Shows Up!” Talks on ableism affecting queer, trans, black, indigenous, and people of color are real deal. We suffer from isolation, lack of resources, invisibility. however, with over 150+ people doing the work, we are not alone! We create new pathways to resilience everyday! We live and develop our strategies to wholeness!]
[Gratuitous love and respect for this co-facilitaor of mine. He’s one of the directors at The Third Root Education Exchange (TREE) in Brooklyn and has really expanded my wealth and spirit, shifting the gaze away from medical systems. Their work engages radical responses to the institutional oppression we face as communities. They also give bomb-ass acupuncture sessions that supports trans people of color, fat communities, people surviving with trauma, and sick/chronically ill community.]

March 30, 2015 | Color of Violence 4 (recap)

March 30, 2015 | Color of Violence 4 (recap)

part 1: a photo show.

listed below are an array of photos that exhibit QTPOC brilliance in a range of
size, shape, skin shade, spirit, abilities, and genders. thanks to COV4 and all
the ways that it stretched and enhanced such down good community.

MARCH 29, 2015: journal entry
first day of ‪#‎COV4‬: my cell phone is disconnected; hugs that have lasted a decade; canes clicking chorus; power naps with novelas; breaking down & undoing the carceral language that lives in us; too many pople saying the word, “lame”; arm and arm links with caring intentions; access intimacy that comes with carne asada taco delivery, SDQTPOC poolside karaoke time; scooter share & scooter mishaps; medicine check ins; doing more than theory when undoing empire; holding on to sacred objects– shells, stuffed animals, deep breaths; questioning how brownness takes up space; questioning simplification/competition of femme v. masculine; thinking about disability justice beyond the talk but in our daily choices, lives, & infrastructure; appreciation for fruit smoothies, black/brown diaspora with the loudest patterns reaching for the ancestors; feeling like your ghosts are watching; gendering & racialiization of the body with policing; such pride for chi-town holding’ it down INCITE-style; the dearest smirks from people you are politically/spiritually in love with even from across a ballroom; workshop at noon, so soon!


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[Olympia Perez & Sasha Alexander, fiery Black Trans community who founded Black Trans Media. Both are writers and organizers dedicated to Black Trans community in NYC. Love to them and their words that I am so blessed to share a microphone with!]
[Description: a group of queer, transgender, black, brown, and mixed race community homies pose for a photobooth by @glittergutsy/#glitterguts at INCITE #cov4. They range in gender, skin shade, size, ability, and style but all identify as #sdqtpoc.] Cripped out & spooned out steez goes a little something like this… @samanthaleeonna, @aemiliusmilo_ramirez, @naimalowe, & @lakshmiintheworld — add us on instagram! #sdqlove









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[Ejeris Dixon, is my homes. Very few people get my adoration of home cooked food, 90’s R&B jams, and the need for organizational systems. Founding Director at Vision Change Win Consulting and previously worked at AVP & ALP, it was so good to be in Chicago with this fam. Thanks for your check ins, support, and brilliance on the closing panel, “Transformative Justice/Community Accountability Roundtable.” So much spirit and heart healing for our communities needs to happen and I’m grateful to have you there every movement of the way.]
[“Transformative Justice/Community Accountability Roundtable” with wonderful ones: Soniya Munshi • Alisa Bierria • Ejeris Dixon • Kiyomi Fujikawa • Mimi Kim • Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha • Clarissa Rojas • Aishah Shahidah Simmons • Andy Smith]
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[This is brilliant thinker, activist, and friend emi koyama’s dog, Adrie. emi is a critical thinker, was doing work with disability and access, intersex, sex worker’s rights, and fatness before any of us knew what a website was. Her work has been pivotal in ways that engage feminism and trans rights, plus she has really dope zines on PTSD, trauma, coping and service animals. Adrie is my dog Cornbread’s touring and political comrade. LOL. Was so lovely to hang out with the both of you and thanks for sharing food, spoons and love while I was sick. See her work at]

[Description: a black femme queer with bright fuschia hair and black clothing smiles. A brown round boi with bowtie and vest smirks boastfully.] . . Such love for this organizer & healer, from Chicago freedom school, Dyke march, and real #chosenfam. As she put it, “we’ve seen all the things!” When i miss #Chicago, i miss this one. Thanks for all your spirit, time, beauty, & wisdom for #COV4. #qtpoc #qpoc #qtpocsupremacy #chitown































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[Description: a black & white selfie with a brown round boi with glasses and hat to the left & a brown queer latina with shoulder length hair to the right. Both have facial piercings. Both are making sassy/gritty faces.] . Making performance/art daydreams! Making fun of lgbt PRIDE! Sharing photos of our respective animal companions (chippy + cornbread)! “It would be weirdo punk short people having the most emotional show ever. Crazy punks with a lot of feelings.” — @gremlingrrrl/Cristy C. Road. #soundsaccurate #shortbrownqueerfeels #cov4 #qtpoc #sickanddisabledqueers #sdqtpoc #qtpocsupremacy #qpoc #previously