brownroundboi [Description: a brown round boi with glasses wears a hospital gown before his top surgery. They take a selfie. ]
On my way to my gender affirmation surgery!!! Many feelings of nervousness , excitement, worry and joy. Before she asks me my name or what surgery I’m having, before she watches the slope of a signature, the nurse asks me where I’m from, am I from the Philippines? When I answer ‘yes, my family is’ semi-formally in Tagalog, her face perks up. More questions– do I have any more piercings? Where’s your family from? What language do you speak? Lastly, she reads paperwork after clearing her throat, the syllables like an assured announcement: ‘FTM top surgery…’ From this she looks up & smiles with a ‘please sign here.’ In my gown, as beeping & footsteps hum in the background, I give my chest a pep talk, an (un)grateful farewell. it’s not a talking to, just resolution. It’s a basic goodbye. The kind of honorable
glare you give a worthy opponent, a cordial enemy, a family member you acknowledge between battles where love isn’t exactly the word you’d ever use. To long-awaited pivots of the body & spirit! To my sweet care team in FL., bae @thesoniag, homey @cheffresh82 , & fam on call, @whatsmanishdoing . Thank you @aemiliusmilo_ramirez for holding me, for @rommyyy123 being on dog uncle committee, @gelenifontaine for medicine & daily affirmations. Thank you to every person who posted, donated, sent intentions, & care my way. Community uplift & interdependence are real. I’m getting a surgery I actually deserve! Soon, dear body: we’ll be something more familiar & maybe even surprising? Yes, let’s do this….
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